My June 25th, 2012. 3 Years After Michael.

So what can I say about June 25th?

It brings up so many memories and emotions that I am not sure I can say that it was a good day. I can say that I was able to keep my composure and enjoy being in the company of other fans. Although the fan world can be somewhat overwhelming at times, on days like June 25th, it's super cathartic being around people who understand you and your heart.

Michael Jackson fans are all people just like the rest of people on this Earth but, we have a profound understanding of Michael and all that he stood for, all that he was to the world, and all that he went through. I could say that we are all high intellectuals that have studied his life and music such that, we have come to understand him but, that just wouldn't be true.

The really big Michael Jackson fans (like myself)  have hearts that can not only empathize but, somewhat identify with Michael's struggles through the years. We appreciate his honesty, pure love, and raw talent. Most of all, we appreciate the impact he's had on our lives. Sometimes greater impact that our own family and friends... so the Michael Jackson community expereiences a deep sense of loss and sorrow on June 25th.

Three years later, it's a little bit easier. But, not much.

The Michael Jackson Fans of NY had a candlelight vigil and we sang songs like "Heal The World" and "Man In The Mirror" while holding candles, and most of us, shedding some silent teardrops. It took every bit of strength I had in me not to totally break down... I just feel this overwhelming sadness when I think back to 2009 and how Michael left this world. I try not to think about it often but, June 25th is not a bad time to face these emotions and deal with them as they come. I am glad I was around my MJ family. Really glad.

 In other news...

I was SO in love when I walked into TJ Maxx a few days ago and saw this canvas poster. I've been recently playing with lots of word canvases and other photo images in decorating my new place. I just love inspirational poems and even more, love these subway art wall plaques. This describes everything that LOVE is to me and it's just something that I left the store wondering how I could do without it. I feel like sometimes people lose sight of some of the most elementary things in love and these small anedotes are great reminders. I am really a simple to please woman and, when it comes to love, it's usually the small things that count for me. (And make me giggle and blush and daydream about you, LOL!)

  When I went back the next day however, it was gone :(. I haven't been able to find it so, I figured that I will just concentrate on my MJ wall (you know, I couldn't move without having a space dedicated to Michael!).

Hope to be back with some photos of my decoration progess and other fun things for you soon. Thanks for reading, XOXO!

Getting into the Heart of Michael Jackson Season

We are getting to the HEART of Michael Jackson season with the 3rd anniversary of his death upon us on Monday.

As usual here in New York City, there are a lot of events planned, from a vigil at the Apollo Theatre, to DJ Spinna's annual Forever Michael dance party, to the World Cry event, to even a Question and Answer session with the incomparable Siedah Garrett. This year, the only event that I will personally be spearheading is a reflection dinner on the 25th. Its personally my preference to mourn the loss of Michael as a human being,  ** Not that I'm knocking any other events (because I'll probably be stopping by several) but, I try and celebrate Michael every other day of the year. For many huge fans, June 25th changed EVERYTHING.

For me, it changed so so much. I lost significant weight, that I wasn't ever able to gain back (which is a good thing I guess) and I became overly-sensitive and more empathetic to others around me. I started Legacy of Love, which now boasts over 120 members and is one of the MJ largest fan clubs in the Tri State. I met so many new friends and rekindled relationships with old ones. 

I haven't been sad about Michael for a long time but, my emotions have been kind of running high about life changing in general... but that's another topic for another day. I feel like this weekend will be huge for me, for the fans, for Michael's legacy. Hopefully I can get back to updating this blog more and sharing more about myself and my journeys in this life (in photos) very soon.

Now... what to wear?!?

With Love & Until Next Time...

The Adventures of an MJ Fan: Vegas in a Nutshell.

Okay so I know that this is LONG LONG LONG overdue but I wanted to finally come on here to talk to you guys about my trip to Vegas.

By the pool.

Why, why? Tell em that it's Human Nature.

This is not what you think though! Human Nature is a group from Australia that has seen great pop success and is known for their awesome renditions of Motown classics. I was determined to see a show in Vegas and the LEGENDS show was recommended to me a number of times but, something about this group peaked my interest. Singing classics like Stevie Wonder's "Uptight," "My Girl," and "Just My Imagination," by the Temptations and even getting into some Supremes classics like "Stop! In the Name of Love" and "Ooh Baby" by Smokey Robinson and the Miracles, this was truly a great night. (Did I mention that they also did  "ABC" and "I'll Be There"?) If you get a chance to hit up Las Vegas, I highly recommend going to see this show!

I stopped by the Venitian and walked around for a few hours and look what I spotted!

Michael, you just never leave me alone, do you?

And a closing shot of me in my BAD era sunglasses.... LOVE EM! Thanks for reading and be back soon with more fun!


I like the feelin' I get when I'm riding on a jet, said I'm "Goin' Places"

I am excited because yesterday was my last day of work before I get to have my first vacation! Yes, I've been working for almost a year at this position without a single day off but, it'll be worth it now to finally be able to take these few days to enjoy and get away!

I am going to Las Vegas for a few days and I'm excited because I've never been there before. I remember in the early 2000's when Michael spent a lot of time in Vegas, as I was pretty new to the MJ Community and was super jealous of those who got to be there, a part of that!

I know its silly to think looking back but, Michael was so accessible it seems. Not that I would've been able to sit down with him for tea and cookies but, I would've been able to see his face, touch him, explain to him what he's meant for me all this time. (Oh how I wish.)

I am really looking forward to the trip and will be back with photos and more next week!


Don't let it happen to me and you, hold on together darlin' we'll make it through.


Summer is so close that I can taste it.

I'm super excited and energized about all of the possibilities that summer will bring this year. Even more excited that Summer is being regarded as Michael Jackson season once again.

If you aren't familiar with this term, Michael Jackson season is basically when all of the MJ related events start occurring, from June all the way through the end of August, to what would've been Michael's birthday. MJ season is always fun because there are so many opportunities to be at fun events and around like minded people but, its also super emotional. Its like, a bold reminder that Michael is no longer here on Earth with us. Something that I still have issues coming to grips with. I've never been very good dealing with death but, losing Michael changed my life forever. Really, it did.

Either way... I'm looking forward to Michael Jackson season and I HAD to shop for some fun outfits to help me celebrate!

I'm still searching around for Pepsi cans, if anyone knows where to find some in the NY area, please let me know!

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